sanggara

there is hope..there always hope..
playing with fire took a lot of precaution..i hope its worthed

there is hope..there always will be hope..
creating a better future

abandon this room...leave this "family"..heheheh

always stay the same, ...

well, at least the lazy, the tired, the sleepy is getting heavy today

more and more time, maybe i could lost in time again, nothing left even my desire, my arts?, well..don't know that, but if that is connected with my desire, i guess it's lost too

this space, this time...i live in a world of lie..but the best thing is, i'm still know what i'm feeling about, hope this space and time won't make my feeling gone, hahahaha

hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.........

here comes the pain..the anger..the senses..the all movement, though i know it is for another transformation

but..
it's started to rusting my foundation, my desire to create an art..but only in here, not at the outside..should i free from here, right now??but to where..??

my pure and truly creation of mine are rise from outside, when i am not here
God help me..
i think i'd better be started to countdown .. countdown to extinction ..or countdown to arise .. but, before that, i need to return to my home first, hope can gain some energy and purify my self

thanks for all friend n relative

today...

it is not a good feeling, every Monday to Friday is become getting lazy, well just try to become a robot, without any desire to create an artwork, someday i will be free from all of this...but right now..be patience

i need some changes...a big changes or small but meaningful..

my pray, my hope, my action is for the best from whatever my poor condition

and the rest ... just like any other day

today...
anger..upset..but still relief
get in touch again with my long lost brother and sister

and the rest is still in question